Thirty Weeks

We're almost into the 20's of weeks to go! How sad is it that I'm excited about that? Don't answer.

After everything that happened this week, I was trying to figure out why it was getting so dysfunctional. You know what I think it is? Apart from the whole long distance thing?

We don't get the new stuff. We don't get to go to the movies, we don't get to go hang out on the weekend, we don't get to be together, but also in the company of friends, we can't really flirt, or call when we feel like it. We don't get any of the normal new 'couple' stuff. It went from nothing, to this. The only contact we have is via the web, and a once a week Skype session. It sucks big time.

Now I think about it, I remember saying it was cool that we each have our own lives, am I allowed to change my mind? It's not so cool anymore. I don't know what you think, but I want to be a part of your life, not just some person that emails you all the time.

This won't be easy, LDR's never are, and that's a common fact, we just have to make us one of the statistics that proves they work. One week at a time, we'll get there.

This sounds more negative than I'm feeling, I'm ok, honest, just a realisation I wanted to put out there. How do we have the new stuff when we can't do any of it? Create our own? Meh. I love you just the same.

X (P.S. I want to make you have to count to ten)