About Yesterday...

Perhaps I should get this tattoo next? Clearly I need the constant reminder.

I can't apologise enough, but having said that, this will be my last apology, albeit a permanent one. I feel like I've screwed things up. I told you I would, didn't I? Just tell me I'm wrong...

Be patient with me. I handle things differently & there is a lot I'm yet to share.

I'm slowly realising that even though I have this blog & I email you all the time & we talk every week, there is a lot you don't know. They're not really important things, but they're part of who I am. They infiltrate parts of my life without me realising. I don't know whether I'm supposed to accept them & behave as normal, or try to change them, & in doing so, change me.

If I'm honest with myself, I'm scared to tell you because I have no idea what your reaction will be. If I don't tell you, there's no reaction to be worried about is there? It probably sounds ridiculously bad, I assure you it's not.

There are reasons I am the way I am. There are the traits you know & love, and there are the traits you don't know...

Why did I even start writing this post!? I'm not a bad person. I just think really differently to a large majority of people my age. That's all.

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