Thirty8 Weeks

You left a week ago today. I've been sending you multiple emails a day, to the point where I'm now annoying myself. I will eventually stop with all that, you just have to bear with me in the mean time.

I can't believe it's only been a week, it feels like its been far longer than that. It's not as hard as I thought it would be, but it's also not as easy as I thought it would be. That's a complete contradiction isn't it. Putting it simply - I'm not a basket case, I make it through each day without any tears, but if my mind's not occupied by something else, it always goes back to you (*gag*).

As gay as it sounds, I think about you LOADS, sometimes I just want to let you know that I've thought of you. That feeling of "I want to tell him" is really strong & while sometimes I fight it, other times I just can't be bothered. I'd hate to leave anything unsaid. Other times I just think of something I want to tell you & don't want to wait.

I told you M put these up for me.
She's been perfect.

Our first Skype experience was a little strange, but great all the same. I'm sure we'll get the hang of it eventually.

I have so much more I want to write but the words aren't coming today. I'm second guessing myself again. Not wanting to come across like a complete fruit loop, although I'm pretty sure you've figured that out already. I'm not usually like this, I make far more sense & can write a clear, succinct post. So just this once... I think it is your fault. =)

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